Gone

His "GONE"
but now tryin' to makes me fall
Shit!
why dun he just let it go?!!
im notink..im not special
i dun see sumtink extra in me
plz let it go

Not Anymore

Well, i've been the super girlfriend
Let you think that nothing bother me
Like when you go out with your friends
And people bring me back the stories
So when i ask a simple question (where were you last night?)
You wanna yell and scream and try to flip it on me

Somebody say, i don't want it anymore
Cause i've dried my eyes and i realized
I deserve somebody that'll treat me right
Somebody say, i don't want it anymore
Because i know my word so you can keep
That drama, i don't want it anymore

no more settling for less
I'm looking for that kind of man
That's gonna give his best, cause i'm giving my best
A man that wants to cherish this
And knows exactly how to "woow" me
Not some silly little boy
Who wants my goodies cause he took me to the movies

Is anybody else just fed up?
If you heard it all before
Not anymore lyrics on
Then right where you are just get up

This is dedicated to(better leave in a day)
This is dedicated to(wipe the tears from my face)
well if you feeling like i'm feeling, then this is dedicated to you (if you feel me say)

That drama, i don't want it anymore

why the sky is blue

i look at the sky
the sky is blue
but why the sky is blue?
looks so calm
look soo happy up there

but why me down here dun feel the same way?
goshhh, i got soo many things goin' on now
~works~exam~assigmant~
~people arround me, who just keep annoyed me~
~ my luv life, i dunno dat i still wit him or not now ~
~ but i prefer to be by myself @ diz very moment ~
my head sooo heavy ryte now
feelin' lyke too much for me
i need to stop & clear my head for once
but when? i dunno

am'i gonna be owhkay?
i need someone 2 told me everything gonna be alright

V-Day

What the FUCK!!
everybody keep talkin' bout valentine's yesterday
why they askin' me?
who the hell need 2 be dated last nyte?

why?
if we go out havin date, is dat mean we loved?
why?
i dun think so at ol

i hate when it comez to valentine's
coz i never ever had a good one before
diz year?
also the same

its lyke a curse
on valentine i'll be alone
datz for sure
either i goin to be single
or
im taken but me & bf just dun get along

so
mine diz year is taken but not get along
coz
his told yesterday "pergi mampos dgn ko"

wth it is, i dun care
serious shitttt..
im happy wit everything im now

someone who got my heart

dearest someone who got my heart,

i scream til i cry
its all bcoz of you
do u noe dat?
i feel lyke my world turn around today
i dunno what 2 do anymore
i just can do notink now

hav you ever think how my life is?
how my works is?
how my studies?
i got my family/fwenz who care bout me
but why?
you make me feel lyke no one care/luv me

im soo tired
you always think negative bout me
you always think i go flirt out there
i got fwenz and i noe my limit is
but
what did i do til u say sumtink bad at me?


how do you look at me?
hav you ever think how frustrated i'm
i dunno how we can survive all diz years
coz in the end you never find sumtink gud in me

you always find the ugly part of me

i dun understand
how everybody other than you can understand me
they noe how "hana" really is
but you..

you told me that i didnt noe you
yes, i admit
almost 3 year now but i still cant understand you
coz u make it hard 4 me to understand

but
do you understand me?
what my craziness is?
i guess u never noe

we got long way to go
all of us grow up now
i dun want 2 waste my time anymore
i got my own goal
but
why you dun make it easy for me

i never ever want 2 leave
but now u make feel lyke ...

who knew..

at 1st, love makes me as the most happiest person in this whole world
im smiling 24/7 bcoz of it
im laughing..
suddenly im feelin lyke got notink 2 worried about
coz i noe
i hav sum1 who luv me

but suddenly
love makes me cry
we scream 2 each other a lot
& there it goes, my tears just cant stop from falling
it doesnt feel lyke heaven anymore

coz love hurt me most of the time..
love only feel great 4 only few second
sooner or later
no metter how long i tried 2 make it stand any longer
it just "booommm"
it makes me fall, alone...

but when im alone
i keep thinking
why should i be sad?
its not lyke the end of the world
it just another lesson 4 me, datz it..

maybe i deserve better, who knew..

as long as i have my parents & family who loved me
im gonna be owhkay

as long as i have fwenz around me & care bout me
i noe im gonna be owhkay

its only the lesson of my life

maybe i should let it go..& take a deep breath..& rilex

hey, whatever will be will be..

first time

i dunno "wth" i'm doin ere writing ol diz.
but i think i would giv a try.
my fwen ask me if i got blog?
my answer is nope!

before i wanted to do a blog.
but i dunno why never ever try diz.
hurmmm..
so now, here i go..