you use to shine..now, not anymore

All this time I was wasting hoping you would come around
I’ve been giving out chances everytime and all you do is let me down
And its taking me this long but baby I figured you out
And you think it will be fine again but not this time around

You don’t have to call anymore
I won’t pick up the phone
This is the last straw
Don’t want to hurt anymore
And you can tell me that you’re sorry
But I won’t believe you baby like I did before
You’re not sorry no more, no more, no

Lookin’ so innocent
I might believe you if I didn’t know
Could’ve loved you all my life
If you hadn’t left me waiting in the cold
And you got your share of secrets
And I’m tired of being last to know
And now you’re asking me to listen
Cuz its worked each time before

You had me calling for you honey
And it never would’ve gone away no
You use to shine so bright
But I watched our love it fade

So you don’t have to call anymore
I won’t pick up the phone
This is the last straw
There’s nothing left to beg for
And you can tell me that you’re sorry
But I won’t believe you baby like I did before

I HATE WHEN U MAKES ME WONDER!
I HATE WHEN U LEAVE ME LIKE S***
WHERE DID U GO?

lifeless

enough with lovie lovie story
damn bored of it ryte now!

why its always have 2 be bout a guy?
shittt!
its not that i dont like guys, i do lyke them :)
but, maybe, i guess, i haven't found the right on yet!

always be with someone, ntah larh..
dunno how to say it, hurrrmmm..

so, i've been alone..kinda cool ;p
i can hang out til i get boring..

but..2day somtink bother me!

my head rase x besh now, bcoz of work..
goshhhh!
why larh me have to do pages?!!
organize that pages? what if my pages doesnt looks gud?
arghhh...

i dunno what to think about ryte now..
who noes, maybe i can, just quit & running back 2 my parent house
and sleep all day, go out
lifeless, heeee~

Life, Life & More Life..

Damn tired..

mcm orang selalu ckp,
sumtime kite kat atas but sumtime pown kite leyh ade kt bawah...

base on my own story..
bile i ade kat atas, i 4got how it feel wen u down..
i try to think, but i just keep myself bz enjoying my time :):)

but when im down,
i always think how happy i was when i was up!

but why larh..
sumtime we hav 2 be on top..
but it's suck, it's hurt , when we down..

do you noe what i mean?!!

when im alone..
i feel damn down..suddenly i wanted 2 cry..
yeshhh..
i do need my own time..
but it's suck!

im ol confused now!
duhh...
i wanted 2 be alone..but when im alone, i hate it..
goshh, i also dunno what i want now..

i need 2 make up my mind bout what i want,
if not, im goin 2 drowning alone..

i think this why my mom called me "ape-ape larh pnye type"..
u're ryte, i'm..coz i always do whatever i want
but in the end i just go away from that, meaning "slalu setengah jln" duhh..

plz, plz, what i should do..what i want?!!

Gone

His "GONE"
but now tryin' to makes me fall
Shit!
why dun he just let it go?!!
im notink..im not special
i dun see sumtink extra in me
plz let it go

Not Anymore

Well, i've been the super girlfriend
Let you think that nothing bother me
Like when you go out with your friends
And people bring me back the stories
So when i ask a simple question (where were you last night?)
You wanna yell and scream and try to flip it on me

Somebody say, i don't want it anymore
Cause i've dried my eyes and i realized
I deserve somebody that'll treat me right
Somebody say, i don't want it anymore
Because i know my word so you can keep
That drama, i don't want it anymore

no more settling for less
I'm looking for that kind of man
That's gonna give his best, cause i'm giving my best
A man that wants to cherish this
And knows exactly how to "woow" me
Not some silly little boy
Who wants my goodies cause he took me to the movies

Is anybody else just fed up?
If you heard it all before
Not anymore lyrics on
Then right where you are just get up

This is dedicated to(better leave in a day)
This is dedicated to(wipe the tears from my face)
well if you feeling like i'm feeling, then this is dedicated to you (if you feel me say)

That drama, i don't want it anymore

why the sky is blue

i look at the sky
the sky is blue
but why the sky is blue?
looks so calm
look soo happy up there

but why me down here dun feel the same way?
goshhh, i got soo many things goin' on now
~works~exam~assigmant~
~people arround me, who just keep annoyed me~
~ my luv life, i dunno dat i still wit him or not now ~
~ but i prefer to be by myself @ diz very moment ~
my head sooo heavy ryte now
feelin' lyke too much for me
i need to stop & clear my head for once
but when? i dunno

am'i gonna be owhkay?
i need someone 2 told me everything gonna be alright

V-Day

What the FUCK!!
everybody keep talkin' bout valentine's yesterday
why they askin' me?
who the hell need 2 be dated last nyte?

why?
if we go out havin date, is dat mean we loved?
why?
i dun think so at ol

i hate when it comez to valentine's
coz i never ever had a good one before
diz year?
also the same

its lyke a curse
on valentine i'll be alone
datz for sure
either i goin to be single
or
im taken but me & bf just dun get along

so
mine diz year is taken but not get along
coz
his told yesterday "pergi mampos dgn ko"

wth it is, i dun care
serious shitttt..
im happy wit everything im now

someone who got my heart

dearest someone who got my heart,

i scream til i cry
its all bcoz of you
do u noe dat?
i feel lyke my world turn around today
i dunno what 2 do anymore
i just can do notink now

hav you ever think how my life is?
how my works is?
how my studies?
i got my family/fwenz who care bout me
but why?
you make me feel lyke no one care/luv me

im soo tired
you always think negative bout me
you always think i go flirt out there
i got fwenz and i noe my limit is
but
what did i do til u say sumtink bad at me?


how do you look at me?
hav you ever think how frustrated i'm
i dunno how we can survive all diz years
coz in the end you never find sumtink gud in me

you always find the ugly part of me

i dun understand
how everybody other than you can understand me
they noe how "hana" really is
but you..

you told me that i didnt noe you
yes, i admit
almost 3 year now but i still cant understand you
coz u make it hard 4 me to understand

but
do you understand me?
what my craziness is?
i guess u never noe

we got long way to go
all of us grow up now
i dun want 2 waste my time anymore
i got my own goal
but
why you dun make it easy for me

i never ever want 2 leave
but now u make feel lyke ...

who knew..

at 1st, love makes me as the most happiest person in this whole world
im smiling 24/7 bcoz of it
im laughing..
suddenly im feelin lyke got notink 2 worried about
coz i noe
i hav sum1 who luv me

but suddenly
love makes me cry
we scream 2 each other a lot
& there it goes, my tears just cant stop from falling
it doesnt feel lyke heaven anymore

coz love hurt me most of the time..
love only feel great 4 only few second
sooner or later
no metter how long i tried 2 make it stand any longer
it just "booommm"
it makes me fall, alone...

but when im alone
i keep thinking
why should i be sad?
its not lyke the end of the world
it just another lesson 4 me, datz it..

maybe i deserve better, who knew..

as long as i have my parents & family who loved me
im gonna be owhkay

as long as i have fwenz around me & care bout me
i noe im gonna be owhkay

its only the lesson of my life

maybe i should let it go..& take a deep breath..& rilex

hey, whatever will be will be..

first time

i dunno "wth" i'm doin ere writing ol diz.
but i think i would giv a try.
my fwen ask me if i got blog?
my answer is nope!

before i wanted to do a blog.
but i dunno why never ever try diz.
hurmmm..
so now, here i go..